Thursday, October 22, 2009

Taxi Driver


When I get into a taxi, and the driver is old, over fifty, and he wears no wedding ring on his ring finger I feel a tiny pinch of pity. When he works 12 hour shifts and eats chips smothered with dark gravy and keeps his energy soft drink in the cup holder by his elbow so it does not spill when he turns a corner, I wish for him a woman to wake beside, early and in the dark, to roll away from and from whom to lift his weight without disturbing her sheets so he can dress in the bathroom and shuffle out to sit in the cold cab and start the cold engine, and roll out under the street lamps. When his hair is still black for the most part, despite his age, and his hair is combed back and, although his shift started five hours ago, his hair shines as though wet because of the substance he uses to hold it in place and in front of each ear fall thick sideburns, and from within each ear curl shy hairs I wish for him a woman who will complain that he needs a shave before he kisses her and who will buy porcelain shepherdesses to put on top of his television. When he begins to cough loudly so that he cannot continue his conversation and has to open a bottle of cough syrup with one hand as he drives, and when he drinks from the bottle mouth and swallows replacing the cap with fingers bearing blunt nails, I wish for him a wife who stops smoking with him the day his father dies of emphysema and who tells him he has to pull his head in when he yells at the jack russell terrier because his desire for a cigarette makes him irritable.


And when I see a taxi driver who wears no wedding ring I know that he is competition.

Thursday, October 15, 2009

Holy Sonnet XIV

My housemate received a postcard today from her friend in China. Orange dunes beneath a blue sky and a large white cloud suspended between the two.


-Where in China is that?



-Oh, that is an atom bomb.



-Why is there a bomb on your postcard?



-It is a Chinese bomb. For us it shows our defense.



I have never seen such a benign mushroom cloud.

-/-
Hydrogen bombs were detonated in 2005 in New Mexico in a test code-named 'Trinity' after John Donne's 'Sonnet XIV'.



Wednesday, October 14, 2009

I have three, perhaps four hours of sleep before I have to wake up. I don't need a life coach, I need a leash.

Cuspidor


I am a wagon wheel- my back is steam-bent hickory, my rattle is ill-sprung and the stony unpaved night tries to unravel me over and over, but I draw the track around my borders and leave deep ruts over its surface and I grip the dark trail tight.